I Long

I long for a love that is soul deep in it’s depth.
Death defying and joyous.
I long for an understanding
Unconditional love.
I long.
I long for quiet comfortable mornings
Listening to the rustle of life in the sheets next to me
I long for whispers filled with your smile
And the feeling that facing the day,
Facing life, is possible
As long as you are by my side
I long.
I long for a love that can see the darkness lurking beneath my skin
Fighting for possession of my mind
I long for a love that can learn
To love me
Scars and darkness and all
But longing leaves me hollow
For even in my longings,
You are faceless.

No One Knows Me

No one knows me like the razor blade
Like blood stains on sleeves
Like a trail of scars on brown skin hidden by hoodies in July
Or worn proudly like faded medals from wartime
No one knows me like ink stains on my fingertips
Like longing
Like regret
No one know knows me like numbness where there should be pain
And pain where there should be life