You’ve Been On My Mind

You’ve been on my mind
One word
One song
Your name
My skin still remembers the imprint of your fingertips
The heat of your lips
I still remember your smile
And that it was only for me
These days I’m drowning my sorrows
But I can’t drown the sin of you
These days I’m craving pain and heartache
But no one hurts me like you
You’ve been on my mind
But you’ve got whiskey in your lungs
And a devil in your bed
You’ve got faded memories of me
Broken promises
And empty hearted smiles
You’ve got a house full of relics
And plenty of reasons to forget
But please don’t forget me
I’d be better off dead

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I Long

I long for a love that is soul deep in it’s depth.
Death defying and joyous.
I long for an understanding
Unconditional love.
I long.
I long for quiet comfortable mornings
Listening to the rustle of life in the sheets next to me
I long for whispers filled with your smile
And the feeling that facing the day,
Facing life, is possible
As long as you are by my side
I long.
I long for a love that can see the darkness lurking beneath my skin
Fighting for possession of my mind
I long for a love that can learn
To love me
Scars and darkness and all
But longing leaves me hollow
For even in my longings,
You are faceless.

No One Knows Me

No one knows me like the razor blade
Like blood stains on sleeves
Like a trail of scars on brown skin hidden by hoodies in July
Or worn proudly like faded medals from wartime
No one knows me like ink stains on my fingertips
Like longing
Like regret
No one know knows me like numbness where there should be pain
And pain where there should be life

Does She Know?

Does she know
That the hands she holds possessively
Were once wrapped tightly around this throat
Tangled in ebony waves
Grasping bed sheets
While that mouth she kisses tenderly
Set flame to brown flesh
Whispered exclamations of need into sensitive ears and
Pleaded for all I could give?

Does she know
That your body does not belong only to her
That I detonated the desire in your core before she even knew your name?

Does she know
That these lips had you spent and gasping my name
Only to be devoured by you
With your taste still upon my tongue?

Does she know
You like the way you taste on my lips
On my skin?

Does she hope
To eradicate every thought of me
Every memory
Every touch
sigh
moan
and gasp?

Does she hope
To be enough to make you forget me
To take my place?

She may have usurped my throne temporarily
But, baby, you can’t forget me
And pretending won’t remove my crown. 

I See You There

Pretty boy
You took up residence in my heart
With your stormy eyes
And your inky soul
I came apart in your arms
Every single time
You unraveled beneath my lips
And I wrapped myself in you

Pretty boy
I see you there

But didn’t you see me falling?
And didn’t you see me drifting away?
I tried to take your hand
Tried to reach for you
But the darkness in you
Refused me
I see you there
But you never saw me

Prince Charming Was A Lie

Once upon a time
I loved you more than any girl
Should love any boy

And I thought
Fairy tales were real
Prince Charming was a boy
With stretched ears and ink embedded in his skin

But Snow White woke up
Cinderella’s ball ended
The evil in the shadows found a home in my soul
The wicked witch
The evil stepmother
Were the lies I told myself

Prince Charming was a lie
A lie you told to steal my heart
And keep it to yourself

Prince Charming was a lie
And I wear it on my skin
Etched into my flesh for all to see
Prince Charming was a lie